FROM SURVIVING TO THRIVING
My work with Trauma (CPTSD/PTSD)
MY WORK WITH TRAUMA
During my 1:1 sessions, I often work with trauma. Many of us carry soul-deep wounds that originated in this life, but often also have layers that originated in past lives. These wounds can feel big and it might feel that you just have to live with them in some way, that you just have to adjust to them, but this is not the case. We are not meant to carry the trauma with us. If something comes to the surface, no matter which form it takes, that is because your soul is asking for it to be healed. You did not come here to just survive, you came here to thrive and truly enjoy this life on earth. And that is where healing these deep wounds will get you. It will help you find your way back to your true self.
In order to heal these wounds, it is essential to go back to the root cause(s) one last time. This means that we do not endlessly go over the events that shaped you, we do not go back to relive the trauma, but we go back to the root causes to truly set you free from the past. I do this by intuitively guiding you through a meditative soul journey, led by what your soul is asking you to look at and heal. During this journey, we continuously communicate with each other so that we can go at your pace and address everything that comes up for you in a deeply healing, but gentle way.
Even though you might have an idea where your pain originates, you do not have to know which memories need to be visited. Sometimes the wound lies in an earlier memory than the one that feels the most painful, and often the wound also requires revisiting multiple current and past life memories where you accumulated parts of the wound. If you have (complex) PTSD you might not remember big parts of the traumatic event(s), even though its weight is deeply present in your body and nervous system. But you don' t have to consciously remember it to heal it. Your soul knows and through this meditative journey we are still able to uncover that which you don't remember.
During a session we thus journey to (several) memories and situations that have caused your trauma. Your souls guides you to the events that need to be seen, often starting at the earliest memory relevant to the trauma. You do not need to relive the event, but only notice what is going on. Just like watching a movie, you can pause the scene at any time. I often let you pause the memory before the trauma occurs as you do not have to watch the whole memory to heal it.
When we visit these memories, I guide you through practices that helps you reclaim your power and energy, release the energy you might have absorbed from others and cut the energetic cords between you and other people. I also guide you to retrieve soul parts that were unable to stay with you through the event. These soul-parts can be aspects of you such as your innocence, self-worth, trust in others, your childlike joy and much more. By reclaiming these parts, you become more fully you. If necessary, we also do additional inner child work and we practice forgiveness (especially towards yourself) so that you stop carrying shame, resentment, guilt or anger. Lastly, we rewrite the events in the Akashic Records in a positive way. By rewriting the event, we create a new energetic baseline for you in the present, a baseline of someone who experienced the rewritten event instead of the original event.
These practices (along with other intuitively guided practices where necessary) help you come back to the present with a rewritten past, a new energetic baseline, with your own power and energy reclaimed and as more fully you, your true self.
MY OWN TRAUMA JOURNEY
As an experience-expert in CPTSD and PTSD, trauma has shaped my life, both in a negative and positive way. For a big part of my life, I pushed through daily life with the belief that if I just worked harder, tried more, and held myself together, I would eventually be able to live a “normal” life. I lived in denial about much of what had happened to me and was incredibly hard on myself in order to function in a world where I constantly felt like I was drowning and unable to do things that seemed effortless for others.
No matter how hard I tried, my body kept responding. I experienced repeated burnouts, depression, sleepless nights, daily panic and anxiety attacks, and flashbacks. The more I pushed, the worse it became, until functioning at all felt nearly impossible and I barely even felt like a human being.
When I finally received my diagnosis, it brought an unexpected sense of relief. It showed me that it wasn’t a lack of effort or willpower that had kept me stuck. I entered specialized trauma therapy with a great deal of hope. I wanted to heal, and I wanted to truly live. I was deeply self-aware and had already spent years reflecting, reading, and understanding my patterns, triggers, and history. I knew why I reacted the way I did. But understanding alone did not bring relief.
I tried many therapeutic approaches, including EMDR. For me, these methods often led to dissociation when emotions surfaced, followed by intensified flashbacks and nightmares afterward. I found myself oscillating between feeling nothing at all or feeling so much that it became unbearable. Revisiting events repeatedly did not lead to resolution, but rather deepened the strain on my nervous system and increased my symptoms.
After about a year and a half, I made the difficult decision to stop traditional trauma therapy. During that time, I felt a strong pull to trust with my spiritual connection and my intuitive gifts more deeply. Meditation became a place of safety, my intuition deepened. I was guided to develop intuitive and spiritual healing methods rooted in my own lived experience. These methods focus not on surface-level coping, but on deep, soul-level healing and they have brought relief in ways nothing else has.
Rather than endlessly revisiting painful memories, I was able to return to them one final time, not to relive them, but to truly heal and release them. Through this work, my life transformed. I moved from surviving, and at times barely surviving, to truly thriving and living a life I love, free from the past.
For a long time, I told myself that if all of this pain led to something meaningful, it would be worth it. Today, I know what that something is. I found my purpose. And while it was an incredibly tough journey, I am deeply grateful that it now allows me to support others in releasing the past and finding their way back to their true selves.